“Learning to trust is one of life’s most difficult tasks” – Isaac Walt
16 weeks of training for IMLP are in the books and another recovery week is almost over. It’s amazing how each week I can learn more about myself, about training and about technique. I’m finally starting to trust, trust my body and trust that it can do what I need it to do. After all these years of running I can’t believe I forgot to trust myself and trust my body. In college, our mantra was TRUST: trust your team, trust your training, trust your coach and trust yourself. I tell it to myself before I step on the start line before every race. It finally hit me last week, that I haven’t been trusting at all. I’ve been scared to push the limits, scared to see what I can do, to trust that my body can do what it needs to do, and for that matter trust my coach. This realization finally came full force last week when I was headed home for some puppy cuddles and time with my mom. I decided I was going to try to get back to that girl, the girl that loves to push the boundaries, loves to leave it out there and the girl who loves it all. First test would be the 18-miler the next day.
For 18 miles I focused on my nutrition, putting one foot in front of the other, on being relaxed and enjoy that I was running. I didn’t focus on how many miles I had left or that I purposely ran on a rolling hill course. The first 11 miles went great! The next 7 were a little tougher. Mile 13 to 14 there was a little pity party, where negative thoughts got the best of me, but I countered those thoughts with thoughts of IMTX that day ‘if they can do an Ironman, I could do 18 miles’ and then thoughts of “well I want to do an Ironman, I better be able to run 18 miles!” Needless to say I finished and was baffled that I ran 18 miles (longest run EVER). I also recovered a lot quicker in the hours post run that from the 16 miler a few weeks prior. Hey.. maybe I am getting stronger eh?!
Timmy and I almost broke up last week. We did not have a good ride during our attempt to ride the Syracuse 70.3 course on Sunday (post long run). I was all over the place emotionally: I was congested, I got lost twice, I almost cried three times, Timmy’s gears weren’t working right (that’s fixed – Phew), I did a LOT of climbing (Quads were screaming, I thought the were going to give out) and it was windy. Needless to say I prevailed and got it done (It would have taken longer to get picked up than to ride back).
On a higher note: My swimming and swim form seems to continue to improve, we’ve been focusing on being more relaxed in the pool, reaching more and ‘slowing’ down my stroke. Sure enough when I focused on my form my times actually got FASTER and I didn’t hyperventilate or kill myself. That was kind of fun. I’m working less and swimming faster. I’ll take it! Last week I also got scolded by my Chiro/ART.. He realized I was only breathing to my left side, so I worked on that yesterday and lone be hold I felt even better. Continued really focus on breathing on each sides this week. It actually felt natural! I tried to practice sighting this week (still WAY too cold to get in the lake), so I would acknowledge things on the walls in the pool… Hey that’s a clock.. and that’s a door, oh my is that a cinder block? It’s getting better! Unfortunately, I keep getting hit while swimming, I can’t help but just repeat ‘Just keep swimming, Just keep swimming, swimming, swimming..” otherwise I might punch back. It’s good practice for staying relaxed..
Timmy and I had an easy ride yesterday. It was great except for the wind. I had FUN. Where has the FUN been? Another realization, this is supposed to be fun, we run, ride, swim and everything else because we ENJOY it. How have I been missing this? In any rate we’ll keep Timmy around and we’ll have fun!
The focus of trust and fun was back in full swing this AM. After last weekends 18 miles, I had 20 miles scheduled for today. First five were on the track to check on some speedier things and then out and roll for the next 15. Needless to say this was the best long run so far. I enjoyed being out there for 2 and a half hours. I was kinda smiling (I think). I didn’t think about past miles or future miles. I had fun. I was so happy to be running. Next week there is no really long run but I get to run 4 times. It’s going to be glorious!
So in moving forward, Less this Lisa..
More this Lisa 🙂